You own this day.
Slowly integrating back into life after ten days unplugged for personal reasons. Therefore I owe people emails, videos, designs and most importantly apologies – personal and virtual. I can’t control when mental breakdowns occur, only how I handle disappointment others have in me after my absence. It doesn’t feel good to let people down but from my past experience burning out is far worse.
And so starting now, I own this day.
I wish I could make a video blog explaining everything that is happening in my life. Talking through things with feedback is how I cope with events. And yet as of recent, and due to the “sensitive nature” (others opinions, not mine [since I’m willingly open about anything]) of topics I’d be discussing, I can’t.
If I had the ability to take all of my plans/ideas/everything and break them open to the world for everyone to see – expose it all for public exhibition and discourse – I would. And I want to! That’s what my #BestLife video series is supposed to be about! But until I have the blessing of those around me to share stuff like this, or until I develop a nondescript format to share events that have happened to me real life (change names and places?) I can’t be fully open. And that feels so personally limiting.
I’ve gotta get through this. And I’ve need to figure out a balance between sharing online for my own sanity and still having a private life…